Couldn't sleep last night, took out my iPhone started reading ping's blog and decided to visit this place once again. I didn't know that those blog post that I've posted last time can be so nostalgic. As I read, pages of different stage of my life just unfolds in my mind. Days when I was in NUS, days when I was about to graduate, days when I was in NIE, my first posting, 10 weeks of practicum, then seconding posting where I have been for the past few years, getting married, getting a house, renovation and bits and pieces of my life. That's A lot!
I think it is time to give update here again on the next phase of my life which started last year. After JH past his exam, we have decided to start a family and have our own little one. I got pregnant and was tested positive on v day 2011. My pregnancy journey was not that fantastic, fr the fear of miscarriage to the detection of an ovarian cyst, high risk for down syndromne, blood tests here and there, aminocentestsis, body aches, per-eclampsia and finally she was born. She is a blessing from heaven. She made our days with her giggles and enchanting smiles.
Life has indeed becomes much tiring but I totally enjoy the time I spend with her every single day. I took 6 mth no pay on top my 16 weeks maternity leave. I really dont know if I return to work what will happen. I have been putting this aside for I do not want to think about it too much. I do not wish to let her under MIl's care as I have already had a great taste of her dominance over baby and her alpha female way of telling u things during those days at her place. Relationship with her was good before but sometime she irritates me so much that I keeps remembering those nasty things she said. Nvm don't talk about her haha.
Baby whom I always say is my bao bei is 5 months old. Her development is fine, only thing that keeps bothering me is her weight. She was born light and since then weight has been haunting me.. I keep wondering why she is so small and plus the QQ who keeps questioning me whether I got take vitamins or gives bao bei vitamins, how much milk she drinks... I just keep feeling that she blames me for bao bei's low weight. Always blames me for this and that, skin eczema also blame me for not shampooing her hair with sep bucket of water etc. thousand and one thing. I think so far al the unhappiness is caused by QQ. Now that she is far far away on another land I am having such a good time with bao bei. Coming April when she is back it will be her coming to spot check. Thank goodness all this happens now and QQ has made me decide to look after bao bei on my own and will NEVER let her look after. I don't even feel good letting her baby sit bao bei for a while. Most of the time after the baby sitting there's always something to say and I seriously don't like the tone she use. It's like telling u how u should do it and the way she does it is better and u should follow. If not she will do. Her spot check and tell u her findings. It's really a Lot of pressure and stresses that she inflicted on me. But nvm I will tolerate and avoid.
Baby is crying, will stop here for the day
Oh i'm so happy, the house key will be ready for collection on the 4th. So.. finally can go take a gd look at the house which cost nearly half a million. Freaking costly to get a house this day.
I cant wait for our designer to commence on the work. Hope to move in asap then have a cosy corner of my own.
Report to my new work place today, on the whole i'm still very positive to my new posting. I guess if nothing goes wrong, i'm going to stay there for good. Very very fortunate and happy to have a course-mate going to the same place as me. I really cant ask for me. I'm greatful so far in my career i hope there is no major hiccups. I will remain positive and strong for the people around me and I promise to my course-mate that we will work hand-in-hand and take gd care of each other~
So glad to have u in my work place in future Mdm Tan whahaha
oh by the way i'm counting down to my days as Miss and single ..
I think had enough of my messy tresses and curls, tickling my face and making me itchy. Supposed to just get a hair cut yesterday but end up rebonding and blew up my wallet.
I was contemplating whether to straightened before the ROM, but i'm afraid that the pencil straight hair will have problem getting a nice french bun. I asked my stylist LiLi, I hope she is truthful, she said the stylist should be able to style my hair , the curling tongs are just to get temp. effects and after the wash up my hair will be back to rebonded state.
I think i'm a freak, just cant stop worry, keep goggling and the more i read abt those post, i get even more concerned...
Now i'm starting to regret .. should have rebonded after ROM. Well i think i have to trust my stylist bah.. and my ROM not tat grand should be too tight up over such things...
I better start preparing to adapt to my new posting .. going meet my colleagues tml and my bosses
Over the weekend, I've selected my gown at whitelink bridal boutique.
Eyed on the gown even before we sign the package with them. So glad that Agnes kept the gown for me.
Though i love it, but i find it a bit too formal... i'm just too fussy, nothing seems to satisfy me.
So the tentative plan is that I'll get a few close frenz to join me at the registry on the 26th dec and then what to do after we signed the papers... shall KIV.
I think i've been reading too many book by sparks , watching too many korean dramas. All these made me wonder what is love all about? In sparks stories, love is always so amazingly romantic and perfect, if we ignore the sad ending. I particularly like the book The Wedding, it has a nice ending and somehow i feel that is one book that is written close to what happens in reality. Well those korean drama, i guessed it is just a fantasy world of what love is about. Nevermind, I do enjoy watching and reading all these. Sometimes I think they do teach or remind us how to love someone while all of us are busy with our work, or busying with other things.
The book P.S I love you is really my all time fav. I am always so touched by Gerry's letter to Holly. I'll always end up with a pair of teary eyes each time i read it.
Just to share ... this is what Gerry wrote to Holly before he passed away and have the letter sent only when he left holly.
From the book P.S I love You by Cecelia Ahern
My darling Holly,
I don't know where you are or when exactly you are reading this. I just hope that my letter has
found you safe and healthy. You whispered to me not long ago that you couldn't go on alone.
You can, Holly.
You are strong and brave and you can get through this. We shared some beautiful times together
and you made my life . . . you made my life. I have no regrets. But I am just a chapter in your
life, there will be many more. Remember our wonderful memories, but please don't be afraid to
make some more.
Thank you for doing me the honor of being my wife. For everything, I am eternally grateful.
haiz... having some dilemma whether I should invite some frenz to join us for the soleminzation ceremony at the registry and have a mini celebration.
I wonder how it will turn out with only 7 people including the couple . Been thinking about this.. it is a special day, though i want to keep it a small and simple event, it is still a special day to me.
THe idea of just going to the registry to sign the paper and go home after tat doesnt really make the day memorable at all. Was thinking why even bother to have the hair-do and make up and the rom dress... really quite pointless.. sigh.. Can just do it like sarah jessica did in sex and the city, just ROM with her usual office wear.
Just like how i anticipated my commencement ceremony, I had had high expectation for that day, in the end it didnt turn out well at all and I have some regrets over it till now.
I think sometimes we try so hard to accomodate other people but we forgot our own needs. It is our special day, why do we have to think so much about other people? Sometimes i wonder, even planning for the banquet we have to consider our guest... ( ok, I think I'm a little selfish right here, but seriously I find it ok afterall it is once in a life time? Cant we allow to pamper ourselves once?)
How i wish I can go ahead and do the things I want, and have the things turn out the way i wish it can be..
Wonder whether it is possible to have chalet? maybe after ROM, can call our friends to attend the chalet?
managed to get my ROM date after literally camping at the computer on 26th Sep 2008 midnight to get 26th Dec 2008 date.
We almost thought we've got no chance after waiting and refreshing our IE for an hr. Just when I was joking with JH that we must camp and got ready the blankets to pitch a tent, we manage to log on to the site and proceed with the form fillings!
Then the race to select a time before the slots were taken up. So ROM confirmed
26/12/2008 at registry at 1510
After the date is confirmed, I made a call to whitelink bridal studio to select my ROM dress, so heartwarming that Agnes takes the initiative to remember what I like and reserve the gown that I eyed on during the wedding show for me hehe. But i think that gown is too formal, but i will still like to try it. Maybe can be a tea dress?
So ROM confirmed, we also confirmed our banquet date as 13th dec 2009. Supposed to be 27th dec but i guess that date was a HOT fav. Eventually we decided to drop that date as we are afraid our guest will wana go for holiday on tat long weekend.
I've washed my diamante heels too, going to bring it down to whitelink to see if it can match any dress.. tat will save some cost. Hair do and makeup provided on that day too at marina square.
I've also got my photographer for ROM.. he will be my beloved best pal since sec sch MR SIMON Toh! so sad that he wont be able to attend the wedding next year
Okay.. i think should start blogging about my wedding preparation hahha
Should this going to be back dated to May. We secured our house at Bedok and wedding preparation starts then.
Next is the hunt for the designer. Made various trips here and there finally decided on A & D interior design.
Then began to hunt for the banquet venue and the bridal studio.
Went to 1 wedding show and a bridal studio. Finally decide on whitelink bridal studio!
While preparing for all these, I went in and out of NTUCDenticare to get my braces fixed so that I can be a beautiful bride next year! ahaha
Well , i cant say braces is painless. It is quite uncomfortable but it is still bearable so far... fingers crossed. Even the extraction of teeth which puts me off from having braces went smoothly.
Now braces for the upper arch is on, got to take good care. From today onwards, I'm going for diet change to protect my smiles!
So next... is the hotel banquet... then the ROM date! tentatively on the 27th Dec 2008
should have blogged abou this long ago, but well my job has been taking too much of my time..
so it all begins on 4th july 2004, another phase in life will start 4th july 2008. Actually we are not even sure whether it is 4th or the 5th hehehe, the day we got together was midnight 4th july 2004, so it was quite ambiguous.
I'll let the picture tells the story
I knew that he was going to Pop the question on that very day hahah but I didnt know what was going to happen on that day cause it is suppose to be a surprise!
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